Photo Cred: Angelyn Moura | Written by Tab Moura
I’ve never been one to believe in soulmates, but if soulmates are a thing… I guess you could say he’s mine. The first time I saw him, 10 years ago, there was so much going on, so many people around. I couldn’t tell you what he was wearing, or even how he seemed… But what I do know is I had this heightened awareness of where he was at all times. I don’t know how to describe it, except that he still makes me feel this way when he looks at me from across the room.
There is this electric currency, like a tether between the two of us. He plays this game where he will stare at my boobs or my butt, like a devious child, and wait for me to notice… because I always do, I can feel when he’s looking at me- I can feel his playfulness. I can feel the tension, it feels like the moments before a comedian delivers the punchline. That is the romance between my husband and me. We laugh so much.
But we lost it for a while. I dealt with depression a lot growing up, and it was amplified during each of my pregnancies; and then we have late nights with kids, and potty training, unemployment, and therapies, and my health issues…
and…
and…
and…
And I wondered if all of the hoopla in the beginning was just nature’s way of convincing humanity to keep popping out babies. Maybe romance was childish and this was marriage, the big leagues. That must be it, those fluffy feelings only existed to get us locked in, and from there, love was a contract, it wasn’t about feelings. We were mature now.
The thing is, I was wrong. I have learned so much about how life, stress, and eating patterns can affect the overall wellness of the body. It wasn’t only our affection that was in the toilet, it was our lust for life along with it. I cannot speak for him, but I know I went to some dark places occasionally.
Utilizing various forms of powerful plant medicines has been a game-changer for our marriage, but that’s because once we overhauled our health habits, those things that brought us together were still there. I know that’s not true for all of you, but I hope that gives you hope for finding new love. It’s not too late.
Plant medicine makes us more playful because our bodies are less painful. Plant medicine helped us climb out of our depression. Plant medicine brought us together after 6 years of therapy, fighting, checking out, and tug-of-war. It has helped us reconnect with our faith, and our community as well. The ripple effects have been extensive. Since cannabis can help you create and strengthen neuro connections, it’s a powerful ally while trying to fortify your relationship with your spouse. And if you’re out there looking for love this Valentine’s, set your intention and grab a blunt… be mindful of what you focus on, love may just be around the corner.